I have a lot to do, besides watch movies on tnt

The house is clean enough,
laundry has been tackled.
i feel acomplished.
and free,

its late enough,
no one will call my name
even tho
i would answer.

a friend of mine
thinks i should try a day
with no apologies.
not sure why.

do i take the world on my shoulders?
i dont feel so.
i feel that i ignore most things.

i do my thing.
maybe could be better.

consideration is not my strong point.
Im more worried about me.


absolutely, i will stab someone

for a friend. (if they ask)

you get me, you got me for life.

but go 50 miles,
or even a month without a hello,
you can't
ignore me.

im the best person you could ever know.
contents subject to change.

huge list of things to do.

dont go near the water

You make the rules.
im supposed to follow,

You dont trust me?
i only bend rules.

I do the right thing.
I do the best thing,

for who?

not me.

i dont mind spiders

i walk thru mud.
and blackberries,
trash and refuse.
fear and hope.

hopeful and helpless.
looking for what?
heroism or relief?
closure,
an end to grief?

sure let me remember

we went to others friends house. one guy was a douch bag closet fag and one a short mexican who looks like he has a black eye

we went to silverado. was weird so many cocks and none of them for me. coulda been hot but was not so much. i got hit on by a drag queen. but she hit on her first. the guy in the cage hit on her too. but she says, " dude you shake it for boys, we cant hang

we had to meet miga so we left. esl confusion makes fifteen mins sound like meet at bar 15. we go. she talks with every guy. goes to corners, touches asses. me and miga go to find her a few times. almost closing and i go one more time to find her. she lost phone, so we look. no luck. i call att and set up a lost phone stuff. she gets on but doesnt want to get out of car. i sit on curb till she does.

we call and get let in.

douch comes out with no shirt and i ask if he showin off or really have a girl in there

then she comes out, supa wasted. he tryin to get her on a bus. i convince her to stay. but take off shoes. she needs help so other does it, he gets mad. haa

i go ouside with mexi and talk for a min, but she comes out talikn about cock and he goes back with her. other is on couch with jerk, i sit with lady, she goes in room with mexi. i tell lady to come with me and he wont. so i take a bottle of vodka and walk out

i call jew. he kicks out friends. and i come over. jew takes care of me

shark tooth

i like this lady.
cant tell if she likes me
seems so by most days,
unless there is a sale, or list
on the line.
she is nice and regular.
but dont get in her way
she will mow you over.
even if you give her a snack and small talk.
she will fuck you over.
then she will act like she didnt.
damn shark.

quiet elegance

sun and city
bridges and boats
people and places.
food and drink.
walk and sit.
play and leave.