unmentionables

i went out tonight. was fun. went to bar XV and then boxes. was fun. nice. anonymous. then aura. full. packed actually. then ride, then walk . then ride a min, to a shop of sandwich. home, beer, other half sandwich,
the whole night was un exeptional.
earlier, at work, i helped a group of nine year olds. I helped them put on concealer, and powder, and eye shadow.
was aaawful.
they were happy, but i took that time to introduce the next generation.
I heard the daughter ask the mom, " When is the next time, Mama? You neve have time. .." and I heard the call of the next generation.
why mama? do you not have time?

those guys

who can say they never met THAT guy?
that guy who speaks as if he doesnt know.
but you can see, he thinks he knows everything.
he is prolly short.
maybe missing teeth.
maybe he tells you you are not appreciated.
dont listen to him.
you can do better.

circumstancial exelence

I love figure skating..
brings tears to my eyes.
The effort and beauty needed to even qualify.
Sad that i am not a part,
hopefull that my children may be.
This year they are so close to me.
I do not know what could be greater.
To be the best,
enjoy, and embrace.
Talent and dedication are not lost.

Today was good.
A red bull at 9 am,
After getting myself and children ready for the day, I drive. To the city.
Feeling ready, perfect, from my toes to my hair. I am in uniform, perfected. Ready to be in a room of girls, also perfect, in every possible way, we are ready.
We love it.
Our purpose is not important, but our goals, very.
Most of us, just making it. but we can come together, and try.
the outside world sees us. we look great. without flaw.
The rest of the world, who sees us daily, sees only flaws.
no matter what we cover, hide, erase, there is still judgement.
This or that, I can see you...
I see your flaws.
You can never be perfect.